The Beauty of Whose I Am

These words just flowed into my mind as I was blocked of words to write.
They come from within this heart of mine.
So much of me sees the turmoil that so many feel like they don't belong, they don't fit in, they feel left out, they are in doubt.
But my heart cries out those are all lies when you look to those around you to fill you.
Look up, look to Him, the One who draws you in, takes you in, fills you in.
He says that you are accepted in the beloved.
He knocks on the door of your heart and waits to be let in.
He invites you to sup with Him, be with Him.
He brings hope, vision, future, a quest.
He causes us to rest in Him, peace with Him, filled with Him.
Oh, the beauty of Whose we are.

I pray that all will know Jesus. Yes, you can call me an optimist, or religious fanatic, or whatever else you deem necessary to try to bind me but the truth is I am free. Free to love, laugh and just be all because of who I know, God- Father, Son and Holy Spirit. I do my best to see others through His eyes, to see situations through those very same lenses. Is it easy? At first glance it is not always easy because well I'm human and sometimes people may have irked me but I must look through those eyes of love in order to live in His peace. I refuse to be affected by people who have hurt me, wronged me or offended me. Why? Well, I refuse to be even a moment away from His presence, it is not worth it. Forgiveness is one of the greatest keys to be at peace with the world, with yourself. His love is infinite.

Lord, What About Him?

One of my favorite books of the Bible is the book of John. So many verses in it are such a part of my heart. One of my favorites is the last chapter, Jesus waiting for the disciples on the coast of the Galilea and restoring Peter to Himself and then Peter wanting to know about John's future after Jesus shared a bit of Peter's future. Right before this moment Jesus had just told Peter to follow Him. I see a few things in this. Jesus wants our eyes on Him. our concerns are not about others. What is on Jesus' heart, what is He saying or doing, what is our focus. Jesus came so that we could be back in communion with the Father. He made a way for relationship with the Father. Our focus should be about the Father, Jesus and Holy Spirit. We should be looking to Him, for Him and be in Him. As believers we should love one another as Father,Son and Holy Spirit loves one another and as we are loved by them. We should be growing in intimacy with God.

To Write or Not to Write

That is the question. I honestly have been very very lax in regards to my journaling, blogging, etc.. I think I know the reasons why but I also know they are not all relevant or acceptable excuses for putting off one of my favorite things to do, the expressing of my heart. God loves to hear my heart on all matters. I know this to be true because when I write those are the deepest most enduring moments I feel and hear from Papa. His love is ever searching me out and those moments when I am "too busy" to spend those bonus moments with Him, while disappointed He never leaves me feeling bad that I did not step into that invitation of intimacy. But I also know that I can not take this for granted either. Not that God will ever leave me quite the contrary He is ever present the moment I clear all to spend time with Him. What I miss out on when setting aside these moments of intimacy in its truest sense is all that He brings to me, fills me with and makes me whole again. I miss the growth, the strength, the encouragement that only God can give. I miss being able to see things through His eyes and His perspective. And above anything else I miss being loved on, being reminded in my identity as a child of the King of the universe, Daddy's little girl, conquering princess and so much more.

To write, I must, if only to grow closer to the Lover of my soul.

Reflections on His Goodness

I am listening to the worship of the last session of the Prophecy conference here at Bethel. When you hear the song, "Bless the Lord O My Soul" how could I not take a moment to reflect. The biggest testimony is my life. Wow, we each could take a moment to reflect on His goodness that we can move, breath, live and just be. He loves us so. We can look at the vastness of the universe and be bewildered at His majesty reflected in each star that He has named. But my favorite is to reflect on how at this very moment I am able to put words together on a piece of paper, make sense as I write them and realize that in all of that I am not telling my hand to type, my mind to think, or my eyes to see and yet this note is being completed.

Sometimes in life we want answers to the things that make no sense or seem so big we could never understand them but I tend to go back to one of my favorite stories of a great American, George Washington Carver. Mr. Washington-Carver was asked how he discovered the secrets of the peanut. He shares that it all started when he asked God for the secret of the universe. No answer came. So, he asked about the secrets of our world. Still no answer. Then as he walked in a peanut field he asked God, what is the secret of this peanut? Ah, the answers began to flow and today we have so many benefits from his pursuit of the mysteries of God.

It is in the small things that we find the simplicity of life to hold the most profound impact on our lives and the lives of others. What goodness of God can you see in your life? It may not be the big things but in the very small such as the breaths you take as you have read this blog.

He Makes Me Lie Down in Green Pastures

It is the first of the year 2015 and I am taking some time to be a Papa God's feet. As I began to reflect on the past year as I normally do I asked God, "What was this year really about? What did I learn? What did I grow in? And on the questions went. I am so use to doing something. Being responsible, purposefully learning, being intentional in relationships, etc..

When I was done I heard Him slowly recite Psalm 23, The Lord is my shepherd.

As I reflected for a moment I saw each moment where this word was alive and living in my life this past year.

I came to Redding and He told me to stay and rest in His little greenhouse. I began to walk along quiet waters of life Holy Spirit brings. My entire being mind, body and soul has been restored. I did not know it needed restoration but God knows. God reminded me of the character I am walking towards in His righteousness.

I really was at a place of just being. Everything I wish I had time to do before I did. Drawing, painting, writing, reading, cooking, baking. Not for a purpose or for others but just because.I did not serve in church right away

In the quiet, in the dark times He is faithful, He is loving and kind. As the months passed by I began to see things in a new way, out of the box, dreams coming to life or being discovered. I am overwhelmed by His love, His presence, His mercy and grace. He has given me so much in this season that it will take the rest of my life to see it all lived out and come to pass.