Just Be

The moments I feel so inadequate, so unproductive, so not in "the will" of God.
Those are the moments I can just allow my mind to run off with.
Letting the lies cloud over my reality.

But then I turn my head to center focus.
Back to truth, back to His love and embrace.
I hear my name being called drawing back from this dream into reality.
I see His arms so open and welcoming.
I glance at those eyes of warmth and acceptance.

And I remember.
I remember that I am His daughter.
I remember that I am accepted.
I remember that I am seated with Him.

I remember that this is reality.
And all I have to do is just be me.

So Be It

It has been some time since my last entry but after some good time of reflection I was talking with God this morning and was inspired by these words, so be it. Yes, I do have a fascination with words and the power they hold. I have pondered often on the Biblical creation of earth and how all creation came in to being because God said let there be... and it came in to being. Because I see all of creation in existence around me it helps me to believe that what the Bible says is true. If I believe that then in the portion of scripture that says that there is the power of life and death in the tongue then I am more aware of the words that I speak over myself and over others because I am responsible for those words. But when I pray do I really believe that the words I am speaking will come to pass when I utter "amen" at the end of my prayer?

"So be it" is the basic definition of the word amen. It basically says that what I just prayed is in motion to happen. But my thought is do I really believe it will happen. If I pray for someones healing do I believe that I will see them healed or am I just being a good Christian and praying for someone because that is what Christians do. I recently caught myself praying for someone and when the words stopped coming forth I was done but then I looked at the area we were praying for and there was not a change. At that moment I made the choice that one, I needed to ask God do I continue to pray for the healing and then once I got direction from Him I continued to pray and when the words stopped coming again and there still was not a change the Lord reminded me of two things. The first thing was the story of Jesus speaking to the fig tree and how when they walked by it a day later the tree had withered and died. The other was what is faith? Faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen.

Even if I don't see the answer to my prayer I have faith that God is moving, He is putting the word in to action and bringing it to pass. It is now His responsibility to do the impossible cause isn't that what our prayers are for the impossible to happen? I want to believe that what I pray will happen. I want to see God do the impossible. I want to see God's kingdom come and for His will to be done.