So Much to Write

A blank page at times can be a delight and at the same time it can also bring a complete sense of dread. As the days go by I have moments of revelation and epiphany and I have my blog written but that usually happens when my computer is not with me and it is all tucked away in my mind left to be rediscovered usually days, weeks, months or even years later. :)

With that said I happen to be able to keep this particular moment of pure light spread across my life. As we have been on this journey through the nation of France I am more and more convinced that I am on a mission. I'm sure you agree with me but this time it is more than leading a team on outreach to bring the good news of the Gospel. Oh, we are doing just that, students are being discipled, people are becoming aware that there is a living God but even more so I see a progression happening. In each city we are seeing God prepping us to go into the next city in a new level of victory. For me it is not like we are in one city, getting used to everything, the spiritual climate, the people, etc. but when we enter each city we are continuing the journey ready to step into what God has planned for us. For me it has not hindered me a bit to step into the unknown but to go with the flow and to stand on what God has solidified in my in the last city walking in that victory and being ready to continue on facing the next battle as ready as possible knowing that God has already won before and so we continue on.

Leaning

I think one word that came to me over and over again was my time in France would be about intimacy and going deeper with God. I have been here now for 5 1/2 months and it has really not been until this last month that I have actually seen this come to pass. In the months before leaving on outreach I really had a bigger community, leaders over me, etc. People I could whole heartily process with, be discipled by and just grow in a deeper way but God had been my everything these past four weeks. It wasn't until recently that I actually contacted my leader to go over a few things for advice and such. It was good to process and get feed back. When you are leading an outreach you usually have a co-leader to process with. As you know this time, it is just me...and God. 

Can I really convey all that I have been learning and growing in in this season. At a moments notice I can ask a question and He will respond. As I have moments to myself I can always share with Him what is on my heart cause He is always available. He leads me. He guides me. He helps me to be encouraged and strengthened in so many ways. Deeper is good even though there are places that you might have to go through that may be hard but in the end it is always good cause He is good. Intimacy is good, it is about sharing, about love, about affection, about releasing, so much goes into intimacy with God  but it too is something good for us to go through. All I have is Him during this time to be able to be the best leader for these young men. It has been good and hard at the same time. I know they are learning lots and I am think in some ways I learning even more. In the end I know I can lean on God and He will bring us all safely home.