The past 4 years

I just realized that it has been nearly 4 years since my last published blog. It doesn't mean I haven't been writing, I have many unpublished articles on 3 different blogs that I have written but I will say that these past four years have probably been the hardest in my life for many different reasons. I am finally at a place where I am free to start sharing again my heart, my vision and my plans. I'm sure that lots of the lessons learned and experiences lived will begin to be shared as Papa God leads me. 

One of the greatest lessons I learned was being present in life. I think that whether conscious of it or not I have lived always one step ahead of my life. Like I had to have things planned ahead of time so that I wasn't caught not knowing a place of exit. I think in some ways it had to do with the trauma I experience as a child. At some point I will write of some of those experiences especially the ones where God's hand was evident through the trauma and as I reflected after the experience. Living a life walking in faith you need to be present. I believe that God was helping to bring the healing I needed in this area of my life so that I can fully live in Him and walk by faith not planning ahead but trusting Him even when I can't make sense of it. 

I believe the greatest thing we can do for ourselves is to deal with those things we have run away from. We can live and get by but whether we like it or not if we do not deal with it and allow God to help you heal from it all we will not be fully whole in Him. This is my continued goal to reach.

Who told you?

*This was originally written in the beginning of 2020.

For months I have pondered what God had said to me during a quiet time with Him. I tend to take things going on in my life, in society and on the earth to God in prayer. I was perplexed about some issues in the world and just took my concerns to God. What am I missing. How am I not seeing things the way others are seeing. I heard the words, "Ask them, 'who whispered in your ear?'"

Wow! I had heard something along those lines before. You see, according to the Bible, there once was a time of purity and innocence where man and woman were free and at peace. They lived in a beautiful garden filled with fruit of the vine and the tree. They were allowed to all of the fruit except for just one tree. Then one day the serpent of old came into their garden and told them something. He told them they were being denied the right to that one tree in their garden. Can you believe looking at the earth and all the fruit of the vines and the trees they were allowed to partake of and this serpent had them focused on the one they could not partake of. Doubt on the goodness of God came into their hearts based on the denial of this one tree. They ate the fruit and their eyes were opened to good and evil. The man and the woman were opened to shame and so much more.

Who whispered in your ear so long ago and yesterday

Who said you were nothing, you don't belong, now go away?

Who whispered in your ear or in your eye

Who showed you disdain, you irritate me, lock yourself up through away ?

Who whispered in your ear or on your skin

You are ugly, you are fat, you are disgusting

Who whispered in your ear?

It was not I, your Father, your Friend, your Guide, your Way, your Truth, your Life.

I whispered in your ear, you are Mine and I am yours.